Thursday, April 16, 2009

Have Your SCUBA Gear Ready, Himbo's Goin Deep

I'm feeling much better today, thank god! It's been a really tough couple of weeks. You know how they say: when it rains, it pours. Lately, it has for me but life isn’t about waiting for the storm to pass… It’s about learning to dance in the rain. I'm still learning to dance in the rain but I'm making progress.

Well, it turns out I have tonsillitis and 2 ear infections (<--correction to my last post), the pain was so intense, my doctor prescribed another drug to help with pain and swelling on top of the antibiotics that I'm already taking. It made a world of difference. But I think the biggest improvement was a result of spending all afternoon with Bon Don and company, and crashing at her house. I really don't know what I would do without my Bon Don. Lacking sleep; sunlight; food ('cause I couldn't swallow anything); and human interaction, I was starting to lose my mind in my tiny studio apartment. Going over to Bon Don's and being around amazing people, and getting taken care of was nice. Confined to my bed, I had plenty of time alone with my thoughts. Intense stuff... It wasn't fun but I realized a lot in the process. One major revelation: in the past year I've grown a tad disconnected, even from most of my closest friends. It took a huge event for me to see that I redirected all of my focus to one place. I'm still pretty young in this life, still got a lot to learn, and I realized that I can't regret anything because I've grown as a result of each experience, yet I couldn't help but feel sad and guilty. 

In the end, I gained a newfound appreciation for everything around me. As you can tell, I'm very introspective these days and I'm finding that being alone with my thoughts is difficult but I will persevere. 




  1. I'm so jealous! Are you getting them taken out? Did you know that getting them out does not allow you the right to eat Ice Cream all day as stated in Brady Bunch! Hope I didn't crush you tonsillitis dreams because it did mine when I found out! ;-).

    Hope your feeling better today.

  2. glad your feeling better betch... you know Big B will always nurse you back to health!! now get ready cause i';m going to go pick you up to party tonight!!

  3. I've been such a bad blogger lately! I'm sorry guys, I will get back on the wagon soon.

    Desert Rat: I'm not getting them taken out :( These days you have to have chronic tonsillitis before you can get them removed. Thank you, I feel way better now :)

    Bon Don: Thanks Big B! I don't know what I would do without you. I really don't!